Always Grace

I have to admit that last night a bit of fear started to creep in.  I have actually been dealing with it for several days now, fighting it when it starts to look for a grip.  Last night for a moment I allowed it to get to me.  I am disappointed to say.

Just as quickly Your grace reminded me of the promise You gave me.  So I said a weak prayer. I claimed Your promise with a little hope and a touch of conviction.  It strengthened me to take up the fight again.  It comforted me because I know that nothing is outside of Your reach, nothing is too big.  And slowly I became bolder.  In spite of the physical appearance I knew the reality!

Thankfully You always meet me where I am and not where I should be.  Thank You for Your never ending grace that gives me all I need.  And thank you that today I saw Your promise here in the physical!

Yet another promise...

My plan was so different than this.  I had it all figured out, all of the details in order.  I knew exactly what would work best and how to get it.  I told You so many times.  I was deeply saddened and even angry occasionally when You didn't stick to my agenda.  I even questioned Your love for me.

Now looking back, I sit here so amazed as I think that once again You have been so faithful to me.  You always are.  You are changing so many things right now.  It is so much better than I could have ever planned for.  You promised to work out all things for my good and each time I get a glimpse of Your perfect plan it pulls at my heart.  I am so amazed at the perfect details.  How the timing fits just right.  It is so much better!
Life is so thrilling letting You lead.  I get to hold on and enjoy.  There is so much freedom in doing it Your way. 

I never want to go back to that life, so boring and stressful.  Full of fear and worry.  Help me to always and in everything trust You completely.