I am once again at this point of being able to see how much I have grown and what I have overcome.  I am grateful for His changing me and molding me.  I am happy to see the progress.  Yet I also can see that I have so far to go.  It seems as though when I get through one thing it opens the door to so much more that I have yet to touch.  Sometimes I wish I could live blissfully unaware, but I would be living so shallowly in love and friendship, in peace and hope.

I cling to Him more with the deeper realization of how incompetant I am on my own to become who I am suppose to be.  Even this in my mind it always changing to some degree.  Yet the more I let go of and give to Him the more free that I become.

I have so far to go, but it will not become an idol in my life.  I will focus on His face, who He is, and how He sees me so that one day I can look back and see, all of these things that are now in front of me, far behind.  And yes there will be more that come into focus because I am always a work in progress, but His grace and jealous love for me will continue to move me through.  One day I will stand at His throne and not be able to recognize the person who I was when I started this amazing journey of faith!